regrets???

continuing from <>, 4get 2mention... i dun regret having waited lor... although i shld admit i dun mind giving yh another chance (coz i use 2hope he'll return), but i rejected him right on e spot... told him i'll treat him like his best fren treats him... coz i still feel tat im happier n more fortunate(xing fu) w sj...

still i have no regrets. although we broke off. coz im grateful 2have him w me 4 2yrs... although i can rmbr most of e recent yr's events oli. actually tinkg back, i'v been feeling guilty this whole yr... or at least half e yr. coz he gave up his career 2spend time w me. tats y i'v been askg abt his plans, when he decides 2return 2his career (2fight). he'll always tell me not 2worry, he'll make e plans himself... actually i expected this day 2come v soon... jus din expect he'll cut off connections w me... but i understand his yong xing liang ku lor.

im v sorry 2hold up his time n plans 2... tink im jus a burden 2him lor... giving him more stress.

tinkg back, i regret giving him e letter 2initiate e break up 1yr 5mths ago... 2letters smmore... coz he lied tat he din c e 1st letter... after knwg, i reali regretted lor... u knw its like he's tryg his best but im doing e opposite. i always wanna grow w him, knw his progress, c him change in2 a betta person... but i always had 2leave when he start changes. i'll always miss his chen zhang guo chen... i feel so lousy, such a failure. i wasnt there when he needed my support... tats y i nv blamed him when he was not by my side when i needed him... wat right have i?