Perserverance!!!

yah, tats wat i need!

been imagining drawing up a gd timetable, faithfully attending classes, hopefully i'll get a CAP 5!!!

looks like these wont come true. oli e beginning of 3rd wk n im olady tired of sch. back 2old self of hating sch, no motivation althou i tink my timetable this round is betta... supposed 2b bzier n more hardworking coz taking more modules. but tink e other way round. rather stay hm pack things.

recently realised im obsessed w packing. dun mind doing spring cleaning as long wont meet those crawllies... im not scared of them ok. jus cant stand e look. make me feel so er xin (puke >.<) if not wrong, packing helps 2relax n 're-organise' sm emotions. its e time u r alone 2sort things out + ppl wont come n bother u + can find some solutions while packing n spotting sm memories.... does this mean tat im trying 2avoid a big problem (or a few tiny 1s) tats y i'v been loving 2pack? perhaps coz chinese new yr's round e corner n resolutions r supposed 2have been made. im suspecting if i have a phobia 4new yr. coz i dun seem 2reali look 4ward 2it (feeling abit stressed abit it, duno y), except 4tat longer holiday n sm time 2spend w my frens...

i seriously need sm resolutions, sm goals 2start my engine so tat i wont fear new yr again... been feeling bad, like i wasted half a yr last yr, not achieving anytg. duno wat i'v been doing in uni...

whoever knows hw 2get tat motivation n perserverance, pls help me... thks alot leh...

boring week -_-

left my part time job liao. left 1wk meant as a break b4 sch reopens 4me 2njoy... but turned out so bored, stressed n wasted. u knw i dun like 2waste tgs, esp nw tat we r talking abt time which even 3-yr olds knw tat its precious. been zzg till noon... 12hrs zz, do housework, pack n repack my stuff... notg much 2do. even if u ask me out, i might jus say im 2lazy 2. loss my motivation liao. althou workg's not tat fun either, at least u can imagine of new tgs tat might happen -- like a tat day tat 5yr old little gal, went 2mph, picked up a 'children dictionary' sort of bk bside me, n exclaimed, "wow, so simple" then she chucked it back onto e shelf n continued her journey in search of her 'more' challenging books...

been quite unlucky oso... last min, jus after i tot i could relax n c e results of module bidding, tgs have 2change. nw gonna change e whole time table. looks like im stuck w not being able 2njoy life in uni. 5day wk again, w all e bits n pieces unable 2squeeze in anywhere. fated. fated 2b bullied by NUS. tats y suay, oli NUS wans me, last min smmore... <>

2005 doesnt seem gd at all yet... except 1st jan. last day of work, althou is a full day of work, at least received sm gifts fr colleagues, showed their appreciation 4my work. but e rest of e following days r...

hope every1 else is njoyg their days, treasuring e minutes n seconds... tk carez folks.