Perserverance!!!

yah, tats wat i need!

been imagining drawing up a gd timetable, faithfully attending classes, hopefully i'll get a CAP 5!!!

looks like these wont come true. oli e beginning of 3rd wk n im olady tired of sch. back 2old self of hating sch, no motivation althou i tink my timetable this round is betta... supposed 2b bzier n more hardworking coz taking more modules. but tink e other way round. rather stay hm pack things.

recently realised im obsessed w packing. dun mind doing spring cleaning as long wont meet those crawllies... im not scared of them ok. jus cant stand e look. make me feel so er xin (puke >.<) if not wrong, packing helps 2relax n 're-organise' sm emotions. its e time u r alone 2sort things out + ppl wont come n bother u + can find some solutions while packing n spotting sm memories.... does this mean tat im trying 2avoid a big problem (or a few tiny 1s) tats y i'v been loving 2pack? perhaps coz chinese new yr's round e corner n resolutions r supposed 2have been made. im suspecting if i have a phobia 4new yr. coz i dun seem 2reali look 4ward 2it (feeling abit stressed abit it, duno y), except 4tat longer holiday n sm time 2spend w my frens...

i seriously need sm resolutions, sm goals 2start my engine so tat i wont fear new yr again... been feeling bad, like i wasted half a yr last yr, not achieving anytg. duno wat i'v been doing in uni...

whoever knows hw 2get tat motivation n perserverance, pls help me... thks alot leh...