Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Love is like waiting for a bus

When the bus come, you look at it and you said to yourself, "eeee... so full...cannot sit down one". So you said to yourself, "I'll wait for the next one." so you let the bus go and waited for the second bus.

Then the second bus came, you looked at it and you said, "eeee...this bus so old...surely very uncomfortable one." So you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.

After a while, another bus came. It's not crowded and not old but you said, "eeee... no air-con one...and the weather is so warm, better wait for the next one." So again you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.

Then the sky started to get dark as it is getting late. You panicked and jump on to the next on coming bus. It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded on to the wrong bus! So you wasted your time and money waiting for what you want! Even if an aircon bus came, can you ensure that the aircon bus won't break down or will the aircon be too cold for you?

So people... (mostly girls but guys too!) want to make sure that what you want is not wrong. But it wouldn't hurt to give other people a chance, right? If you found that the "bus" doesn't suit, you just press the red button and get off the bus! But wait... I am sure all of you have this experience before. You saw a bus is coming (the bus you want of course) you flagged it and the driver acted blur by pretending not seeing you and zoomed pass you!

The bottom line of being loved is like waiting for a bus and whether you want to get on the bus and give the bus a chance depends totally on you and walking alone is just like being out of love.

If you love someone set him/her free. If he/she comes back to you, you know they're yours. If they don't then it was never meant to be.

Remember to always say what you mean. If you love someone, tell. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you. Because when you decide that it is the right time, it might be too late.

Seize the day. Never have regrets.

And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today. Friendship is never an accident. It is always the result of high intentions, sincere effort, intelligent direction and skillful execution. It represents the wise choice of many alternatives. And remember.... Keep Smiling....coz...
"Of All Things You Wear, Your Smile Is As love returns to me, As I return to you, As love returns to us.

status

keep 4getting 2blog abt tis, mayb coz i knw its gonna b long n i cant afford e time 2spend on comp. well this happened on tat fateful day after sj's call... tats a mth ago. sounds long hor.

tat nite i din wanna go weeping under my blanket. tryg hard 2stop e tears, keep telling myself 2look at it fr a +ve angle. so i watched e ah-fang's interview programme. guest tat nite was rene liu (liu rou ying). they toked abt rene's personal opinions of personal stuff like family, relationships n men...

rene admitted tat she's a lady w traditional tinking in e sense of relationships. being brought up by her grandparents (coz parents divorced), she learnt most of e tgs fr them. through her grandparents' relationship, she found tat no matter wat happens, oli ur lawful wife will stand by u till old age. (guess she's tryg 2tell guys not 2have affairs)
she rmbred her grandma said tat women shld jus do their part 2their best, n not bother abt tgs outside their control. rene was for this moto 2, although its traditional. wat it means is if u r smbody's gf, jus do ur part as a gf n dun ask so much abt wat ur bf does. she recalls hw her grandparents keep persuading her mum not 2divorce her dad many yrs ago when she was reali young (tink <10).>
u may tink its silly. coz e westernized modern world has tot women 2stand up 4their rights, get themselves out of unfair situations. but is it reali true tat this is 4e betta? more n more women r initiating divorces out of small or at least solve-able problems. its making alot of ppl have phobia of getting married.
well, i admit im like rene -- traditional tinkg. a status is everytg. perhaps smday i may change. at this age, rene would oli settle down if e other party has e financial ability, i.e. if e guy can propose w tat famous, most branded diamond/crystal ring -- i cant rmbr tat brand. mayb i'll b like tat 2smday. but tat shldnt b in action tat soon.

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

cause of hunger

told u all tat i'v been feeling hungry v easily recently. esp since i started schoolg at nus. lx say its coz i have high metabolic rate. she xian4 mu4 me 4tat... well, jus eaten -- tea? or semi-dinner bah -- found e reason.

NUS V RICH !!!

coz e air-con 4eva freezing cold. tats y. as u all knw... i dun have much fats 2burn. so v easily feel cold mah. w this kind of torturous low temperatures, burn my energy faster. tats y v fast hungry. n v easily tired. almost every lecture 10mins wanna zz liao. so disastrous. so if u all wanna slim down... mayb can try stay in air-con rms bah. but e health effects not v gd lah. high costs oso... so jus shun4 qi2 zhi4 ran2 lah =p

Sunday, September 26, 2004

go away!

tink 4nw, we all seemed tied down 2relationship stuff. i dun wanna tink abt it a wee bit. its heart breaking. i dun wanna give myself anymore hopes in relationships. sorry 4being so -ve. i'll bless any couples ard me. duno y i feel like i wanna be a loner. after yest's outing, e feeling's even stronger.

y is it tat guys n gals can nv jus b reali gd frens? y is it tat guys always get close 2gals when they wan them 2b theirs'? once they'r rejected, they'l jus disappear into thin air. i understand tat its quite embarassing or difficult 2face e person who rejected u. but i tink they reject u coz they'l rather keep u as a fren, isnt it? y is it tat guys cant treat gals as frens 1st, understand them further, then ask e qn when they tink tat they'r reali compatible? most of e time they'l go straight in, hit-n-run... arent they tired, rushing ard n having 2avoid after they fail?

actually, its their problem rite? y m i dwelling so much 4them? gals always have 2help guys tink. but they always get e credit. a fren once said she'l rather stay single all her life. she tinks since we r born alone, our limit 2tgs n pressure is only a human unit. being a couple means double pressure n responsibilities. tats wat she tinks most ppl cant bare, n its unnecessary 2trouble urselves over them...
tats extreme tinking. i had a hard time toking her out of this mindset. but stil failed. nw im tinkg perhaps she was rite. not absolutely. but there's truth in it. if u wan no headaches of others, stay single. althou tats not e ultimate solution. at least its e most controllable, feasible temporary solution. tats avoiding, isnt it? i wont recommend. but wat else can we do?

when u've sorted tgs out w URSELF, u wont needa avoid liao. tgs dun get themselves sorted out automatically. y is nature so irresponsible? create troubles but dun clear their mess... im not gonna help trouble clear it's mess. lets wait n c who can bare w it longer... haha


Tuesday, September 21, 2004

My maternal story...

yest i was alone w my mum at hm. told her of e stupid 5-day break of NUS n tat i'll need half a yr more than NTU peers 2grad w an honours... unfair rite? nw then i knw, so tinkg if can drop sch. anyway they haven deduct sch fees yet.

well, it was yest tat i found out e reason 4my mum's 'obsession' tat gals MUST b v powerful... in e sense tat they mus b well-educated n hold an active role in society... (i.e. work even after marriage n even if ur husband can support u, always 2depend on ourselves)
i used 2tink tat its coz my mum's elders v zhong4 nan2 qing1 nu3. actually its more than jus tat...
after e 2hr chat yest, my mum told me abt her extended family-- it was abt e differences between e rich n poor (as in e brides' family background), whether e bride is educated, e grooms' family background (wat kind of groom u shldnt choose)... althou i still tink there r otherwise... tink its still v difficult 2change her mindset, coz its been her experience since young.

yi4 zhao1 bei4 she2 yao3, 10 nian2 pa4 jing3 sheng2

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

cold noodles

u knw e leng3 mian4 from china, duno beijing or shanghai... nus biz canteen got sell mah. then got a classmate say tat stall fd not bad. everyday change menu. then i tried other dishes b4, tink not bad. so tot of tryg leng3 mian4 2day lor.

so i bought it... its clod noodles + sesame powdered sauce.

wah, at 1st tot quite nutritious (got sesame mah). then when try... e sesame smell so strong, i oli tasted e sesame n notg else. like putting spoonfuls of sesame powder in2 my mouth!!!

1st time i reali gave up half way. u all knw i dun waste fd n $$ 1mah. but tis time i reali cant tk it lor. reali bad... cant get used 2e taste. then their side dishes all e weird, unhealthy stuff... pigs' liver(not so bad), pigs' ears!!! reali wonder hw they eat it...

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

I told a white lie...

last nite was chatting w sj's sis on msn. she's in P6 this yr. PSLE on 5oct...

she ask me go her sch website c photos. say she so fat inside. actually no lor. so i told her its baby fat, i oso used 2have, will shed off when u grow older. then she ask me go another class c hw handsome a guy was. so i went n ... puke!!!

that's called handsome??? i was tinking dun tell me she had a crush on this guy? but anyway, im not gonna lie. coz she still young. so wat if she'll hate me 4implying tat her taste is bad. im jus gonna say...
me: look like nerd, from china!!!

i v straight 4ward. then she replied...
grace: yah. dunno y all the gals in my sch like him...

haha... silly gals. e 1beside him looks betta... haha
then she continued 2say she dun care abt who's gd looking or wat ever. anyway she's not there 2have a relationship.

so i was fang4 xing1 that she got my hint of trying 2stop her fr BGR. so i told her... (nw, this is it!!!)
me: when u go to poly, jc or uni, u'll meet really handsome guys.

u knw wat i mean... it's not reali true, but there's also sm truth in it. coz as u bcome more matured, then more vain n watever... esp 4guys, e older e more charming as wat many ppl say.

sj saw this white lie!!! n he msged back...
sj: =PPPPPPppppp

guess he's hapi tat (he tot) i'v got a new target or smtg like tat...

im not hapi. tat comment wasnt supposed 2mean wat he's tinkg. or m i jus tinkg 2much?
well, wat can i do since he already saw tat. 4get it. i was jus tryg 2educate his sis mah... n remindg myself tat i shldnt 2... mus set example n anyway im not free. n anyway, e guys here are not wat i described 2his sis lor...

im feeling bad now. duno y. would u have done e same?

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Y e SUN appears yellowish???

ever tot of this qn? well, i din... until i saw this article fr straits times... so share w u all. if u all wanna 4ward n share w ur frens, can let me knw coz i got e email text can 4ward 2u all lor =p

IF THE Sun gives off white light, why does it appear yellow?
The Sun does 'emit' white light, which is actually a composite of all the visible frequencies of light. The Sun's white light is scattered by Earth's atmosphere before reaching the Earth's surface. Light at the violet/blue end of the spectrum is most easily scattered by molecules of air. Red, orange and yellow lightwaves are least scattered and these are thus transmitted through the atmosphere more readily than violet/blue. That is why the Sun looks yellow and sometimes orange-red at sunset.

Associate Professor Lai Yee Hing
Principal
National University of Singapore (NUS)
High School of Mathematics & Science

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

hi folks!!!

wah, a wk+ nv blog liao... tink we all getting busier recently bah... nobody blogs everyday liao... except AC. she 2free... tink addicted 2use comp so mus find smtg 2do online. alot of tgs 2b bz w... whole wkend burnt due 2inefficiency... e mktg proj lor, use up so much of my time.

im feeling abit bad. sun nite i went hm n e moment i reach hm... i threw temper at every1. duno y lor... jus automatic. tinkg if its pms... but i nv realised i have lor. anyway, b4 tat waited v long 4e bus lor... so e fd i packed back 4them all dried up. then since im supposed 2eat my share of e lunch... i had 2shares 2clear lor. lucky my sis volunteer 2help me eat. tink mayb she free n not v full. then my mum was like askg since i din eat lunch... so when was e last time i ate? i jus din reply, keep quiet. they always like 2assume i nv eat lor. i v fedup when they ask e fd qn... my mum knws so she jus ended by sayg if 2full then dun gouge... actually i reali nv eat much tat day. surprisingly i ate quite alot, din feel v full. did ask my sis help eat abit, reali abit. coz e fd i pack back reali big packet. she ate 1/3 or 1/4 of it oli. on top of e big portion, i ate e afternn's porridge. reali a big share hor?

actually wanted 2post tis on mon... c drag till 2day then can post. + i 4get am of e tgs i wanna write!!! keep having this problem lately. got 2many tgs in mind... tink i betta write down here, so when i come in again can c, write n share. haha... ok. been pestered by my 'admirer' again... his story is v drama... tell u all when i free 2write... sorry, mai4 guan1 zhi3 1st =p

Thursday, September 02, 2004

M i LoOkiNg 4WarD 2e wRonG thIngS?

u shld have guessed it. i dun look 4ward 2classes, dun look 4ward 2aquiring knowledge... im lookg 4ward 2meeting my frens... go out play n have fun, chat n joke n do wateva cranky. 4e 1st time i tink, im not rejecting ppl's request 2ask me organise gatherings... haha. but it seems every1 so bz, hw 2meet... its a challenging task 2organise gatherings ok. mus b able 2resolve ppl's conflict of interest, problems in timing, venue n e program itself. been turned down quite a few times when i plan 4gatherings... there was once i reali had phobia of organising... coz nobody appreciates. they'll jus turn u down like nobody's biz n indirectly influence e rest 2reject ur idea as well. tats y e duty of organising shld b rotated, so tat every1 can appreciate n react in e same positive way... looking 4ward 2this sun's ktv session. althou not v rich, but scrimp abit still can pay lah. make sure u turn up hor...

this time's my turn, so who's next?

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

wat right have u 2hiam others?

yest was on single-deck bus 30 back hm... then ard harbourfront got quite alot of ppl come on. u knw e front arrangemt of e seats... 2 sets facing each other 1... i was sitting at e 1facing e front... then a lady came 2sit at e outer 1facing e back... she mumbled smtg... so i looked over n tot she was toking 2sm1 on e phone (coz got earphones.. so its not hp lah...), so tot mayb she jus 'feedback' 2e station she listening 2... but her face reali not v happi lor, like sm1 owe her $$

so e bus is quite crowded lor, not much seats left. then there's this uncle -- tink work at e port kind, coz his clothes v dirty then he v dark n looked not v well-groomed lah. tink he came up fr e same stop as e lady. so cing still got 1seat inside (beside e lady) he ask 2b excused in... then e lady's reaction v big lor... she stood up immediately n went 2stand by e window at e other side... then she keep 'mumbling' w all e ssss n duno wat... staring at e uncle... e uncle feel so mo4 ming2 qi2 miao4... as if he's a se4 lang2 will molest her tats y she dun wanna sit there liao (but she not young nor pretty nor sexy), or tat he so fat need 2seats lor...

it was none of those reasons.... then i turned away coz e whole bus saw wat happened lor... so tink e uncle quite pai seh so i betta dun make him feel worse... coz i sitting right in front of him mah. then i heard pssss, smbody sprayed smtg.... then got smell.... v strong perfume!!! can faint tat kind... tink e lady spray 1lor... coz she still nagging duno wat n she got 2big bags w her (so mus b bring alot of these unnecessary tgs)...

wats e problem w her? e uncle din smell at all lor... her 'perfume' more irritating. then i realised she carried an elle bag... wah, so rich... shld b do office job kind lah (c her attire). but wat right has she 2despise others? if it wasnt 4ppl like e uncle, u tink u'll b on e bus nw? tink u'll b trekking thru swamps home nw... dun even knw if u can have a proper shelter lor... if e uncle reali is a port worker, w/o him, u wont have an elle bag lor... mayb not even clothes lor(since spore v few manufacturers of clothes 4spore markets).

she tink she so civilized? so educated? so high up there? then shld b able 2afford cab or have a chauffer lor... duno wat these ppl tinkg. tink she shld b 1of e lao3 chu4 nu3 oso lah... if tats true then at least im relieved tat she's not creating trouble 4her children or spouse or even spouse's family... haha

so pls have zi4 zhi1 zhi1 ming2, dun over-estimate urself n despise others... u may look gd on e front, but who knws if u have eq at all?